Ok, so where do I start?

On October 1st, miimum wage went up right? Well....I have been there at Food Giant for a year and a half and so Im expecting at least....6.50 or 6.75.....what do I get??? 6.25....right on minimum wage....I wasnt very happy....considering the fact that someone who has been there for 5 months less than me was gettin paid 6.75....So I talked to my boss about it, and it appeared to be an "office  typo" and he will be fixing it as soon as possible....

So...anywayz, friday I went to the HArrisburg football game....and it was freezing....the next morning I woke up sicker than hell...I couldnt even lift up my head off the pillow....my mom called into work and told them I was too sick to come into work....come to find out, the office person had a fit that I was supposedly sick and that I was prolly not sick and just faking it considering I was at the game the night before....knowing it was prolly the game that made me sick in the first place. So I talked to my boss about that too....nothin really was done, but my mom is madder than heck right now because of it....she is gonna call and fix things out soon....

oOoOoOOoo.....I have a 101/a in my History class....!!! yay!!!

I have no idea what I have in anything else..I guess I'll find out later....

I still Love Jeremy Dale Grant....he is my prince.... ♥

He has made me smile even on timse when all I could was cry....

I have no school or work tomorrw..so I am going to go get applied for a debit card, and go buy a couple new cd's that are coming out....and then go see Jeremy after he gets off work...

So anywayz...theres my update.....luv ya's~

Peace Up~

~Samantha~

I can see us holdin' hands...

Walkin' on the beach,

With our toes in the sand.....

I can see us on the country-side,

Sittin' in the grass,

Layin' Side-by-side

You can Be My Baby......

I'll always be your lady....

OK so i promised a more detailed post.

Ok so the past 7 or 8 months sure have been a trip. I regret not writing it all down cus I know I wont be able to remember and write it all down.

SO I'll start off where I left off...

David and I have become friends again. We talk every now and then but only when he comes to the store where I work. But newho...What happend was he told me his phone was about o get shut off. Well he told me then he would find any way possible to call me no matter what. Well, he never called. i was heartbroken...again....for like the billionth time. SO I was upset for abotu 2 weeks. When all of a sudden someone came into my life unexpectedly. His name was Joey Gentry. And he was so perfect to me.

Joey asked a friend of mine at work who I was and if i had a boyfriend. Well, it went from there. That night we started talkin and well....a few days past and we fell hard for each other. We did everything together and went everywhere. We went to prom 2006 together. It was great, until we got into a fight. it was our first real fight. And it was horrible. I wont go into detail but it was bad. The rest of the night went ok, we went to shooters, bowling, and laser tag, and I Hop...Everything was fine. Well....the following 3 months were hell....He got kicked out of his house so he moved in with a friend. After that he was constantly partying and doin God knows what with God knows who. Well he then staretd goin to Hardy all the time goin to partys up there. i was told he cheated on me a lot up there with girls he didnt even know. I also heard he got drunk off his ass plenty of times. O well , ill never know for sure. SO one day, he asked me if he could go get drunk with an ex girlfriend...i said hell no. Well, after that hell broke loose. he called me every name in the book, ad made me feal horrible for everything. I felt so degraded and low for ever bein with him. So we brokeup. Lol that same night, i called him and told him I hoped he had a great time cus i was about to go and have a better one. Me and one of my best guy friends went to the movies that night and had a blast...thaknks John!

So.....as fate would have it, we didnt get back together. In fact a few days later, a friend of mine I had met only a few days before started really likeing me, but I only wanted to be friends. I made the mistake of leadin him on, but i was completly on the rebound. He was aboutr to be shipped out to Ft. Leonardwood in missouri for 2 or 3 months and I just didnt want to wait on him. I said I would, but I just couldnt. I had no feelings for him at all. Well before he left, me and another friend of mine, bret were out running one night and Somehow JOey found us and went crazy. He was yelling and cussing and screaming and me and Bryan and Bret. I mean...i had NEVER heard these kind of words and I had never heard someone this mad. He started pushing me around and saying i was a whore and called me every name in the book. He got so close up to my face I could litarally see his tonsils as he yelled at me...i cried...and tried to walk away but he kept holdin on to my arm and twistin me around. I finally got away and never looked back,.....it was horrible....

That same night, at Food Giant...I met the most wonderful person. He asked me what I was doint hat night, lol I said i was goin for a run...Well before joey got there, Jeremy, this guy, came up on us and started talkin to me. He put his number in my phone, but forgot to get mine lol. So the next day, he called Joey and asked for my number. Joey of course told him I was a lying bitch, which isnt true..and it all started there. He called me, and the following 3 months have been a blast. At first it sucked, cus he worked building grain bins in other states like mississippi and louisianna and missouri....but he only stayed with them for a month or so after we got together. After that, he moved back home. And is now workin for razor rock....I love him, i truly do,.....

Well I thought i lost a friend a month or so ago. But, things worked out, and eventually I found a best friend thru the whole ordeal. Mendy has become like a sister I never knew. We are so alike its scary. Lol, we had the same basketball number, exact same birthday(both just turned 1 , we have the same type of hair and hairstyle, we both dated the same guy before, both had a long lasting relationship turn bad, and we get along pretty good. Anywayz, Robby (my ex from 4 ever ago) has also become a good friend of mine. I made a bad decision a few weeks ago and thought I had lost his trust for good, but We worked thru them and have become better friends now. He has these really great girlfriend now. I am proud of him lol. I am glad he has found someone to make him this happy, and she works there at FG and I think she is really cool. Im happy for them!

Anywayz..oh yeah I graduated High School this past may. And boy let me tell yeah, life has begun. Its so much different in College cus no one really tells u what to do. U just do what u do, and get to ur class and take notes and leave. I have passed everything and I am doin great so far. Besides one dang biology test. grrrrr...

Welp, its like 12:30am and I got school in the morning. Im out, and I will try to definetly update at least 3 times a week if possible.

Peace Up~

Sam

ok so its been forever since I have wrote in here. Like 6 months i think. Well I think its time I start updating more often. Too much has changed in my life over the months and i need to keep a track on it.

Ok, so me and david lasted like a month. He quit callin me, and I quit callin him, and it just didnt work out. We are friends now, but we went about 7 months without seeing or talkin to each other.

After David I met Joey. What a trip....We were "engaged" and things were great....for like a month. He went all crazy on me and cheated on me like a million times. Lets just say I fell hard, and hit rock bottom, and just died inside. We broke up after he asked me if he could go get drunk with an ex girlfriend. I said no, and hell broke loose.....we broke up after 3 months together.

Well,I graduated High School and life begins here I do believe. Life has blasted off to a great start. Work is going ok, i guess. But the moment I graduated high school, I felt free of all barriers. i can do what i want nw without anyone tellin me what to do. I mean I still live at home, but I am definitly more free than ever. My mom lets me do just about whatever and whenever I want. I can stay out late if I want. I can go to Jonesboro at 11:00 at night if I want.

Well, 3 months ago I met Jeremy. and well...what can I say?

Jeremy is my light to all the darkness Iw as goin thru about 3 or 4 months ago. Our 3 month anniversary was Monday, and he got me a gorgeous pink sapphire diamond ring for my birthday and anniversary. It was so sweet....I love him...I'll make my next post more in depth. i dont have enough time right now to.

Anywayz, College is great. Im goin to East Arkansas Commnity College and its great. Ill explain more later(Im in class now)...

But anyways I just wanted toupdate real quick.

Love,

Sam

Well its like been forever and a day since I wrote in here. So much has happened, and i have been so busy, its been unreal. So, I had a lil time tonight so i guess ill update real quick.

Well on my last post I mentioned goin on a date with a guy named David. Well, that saturday we had a terrible ice storm so we couldnt go anywhere, but he risked driving 50 miles in the ice just to come see me. So he stayed over at my house till 2am that morning. We watched movies and had just a great time. Well, after that we can only talk on the phone during the weekdays cus he works every night till real late and he is off on weekends. BUT, after talkin a lot and getting to know each other, we finally started goin out(bf gf) on February 23rd. We only get to see each other on weekends, but its definitly worth it. I really care abiut him, and he says he cares for me too. We have had some really interesting conversations lol. We are really open to each other about things lol.

I am so relieved now to have a boyfriend. I have had some bad experiences lately with some guys who i thought i was about to start goin out with, but thank God i waited it out. Im pretty happy with David, but i dont want to make any quick assumptions/irrational decisions right now cus i want this to work. If we move too fast, it will just wind up like my other relationships. Broken...

Lol we have a song now too. Our song is "Everything I Do, I Do It For You" by Brian Adams. its a great song which everyone should listen to. Omg lol and we always sing "im in love with a stripper" to each other. I guess we are each others strippers!~

yeah i know, thats crazy. o well...

Well since basketball is over, I finally have time to do other things. I work a little bit more than i used to. I am in the school play and I actually have a lead part. Its pretty fun. Been wokrin pretty hard on that.

Well, I thought there was more to update but i guess im too tired to think of anymore lol.

Im gone to go to sleep now lol.

Peace Up~

Samantha

wow.....do i have a good post tonight....

lets see.....

Last week I was in choir and a girl who hates me with a passion, just cus her ex boyfriend wants to go out with me, but i dont, decided to start some crap with me. She needed to know my favorite colors for our senior class thing she is doing. I told her that my fave colors were Hot pink and Blue. She came back with an attitude and said "it should be black to match your heart"....well.....knowing myself, i was not gonna let her get away with saying that...i got in a huge argument with her and told her how i felt. well both me and her wound up with d-hall but it was all worth it.

 well...saturday i went out on a date with Jake. Jake and I have known each other for a lil while and decided to go out to a basketball game and watch a couple movies at his friends house. we had a great time, and he even told me we were "together" and he hoped we were together for a long time. Well yesterday, on valentines day he told me that he wasnt sure what he wanting to do. He is a big time golfing guy and will be gone a lot the next few months and he didnt want me sitting around waiting on him forever.well...i was mad. more upset than mad though. I did like him and wanted to give us a chance...butwhat  i didnt get was, he thought we were just dating. i thought we were together as bf and gf, and he said when he told me we were together it meant dating. oh well...he did take me out to dinner and bought me a big frog from wal mart. its really cute, and really big. Well, he told me he wanted me to date other people and have fun. Well, thats EXACTLY what im gonna do.

I am gonna have a lot of fun. In fact, just Sunday night, a guy came in to FG and was talkin to me, and he gave me his number. So I called him last night and we talked for like 2 hours. We have a lot in common. And he is a great guy. Lol he sang a few songs to me, it was so funny. He has an awesome personality. So once we got to talkin to each other and got to know each toher a lil better he asked me when were we gonna go on a date, and so saturday Me and him will be goin to go do somethin. Not sure what yet, though.  but i am 100% sure we are gonna have a blast.by the way, his name is david~

basketball is over now. We got screwed out of the district tournament, so we no longer are playing any more games. after the game the team met in the locker room and we all just bust out crying. it was our last game, and we seriously, honestly got screwed out of it. Oh well, its over with now. I regret not sticking with basketball from 9th grade till now. i cried all night over it. i couldnt sleep at all and i woke up sick to my stomach over it. im really gonna miss basketball.

Ok well, im about to go to church. i may come back and update some more but im not sure. Im kinda tired tonite...

Peace Up-

Samantha

Whew...so ok, all last week was a blast.

It was homecoming week(hoopfest) and it was so much fun. I was chosen for one of the 3 senior maids. and my dress was just so perfect. Every guy who saw me and talked to me was like "Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn......." lol it was funny. also friday night was senior night also, and I got to start and I even made the first 2 points! it was great, it was, i believe, the best hook-shot ever recorded in history.....lol it was cool.

So wednesday I get called to the office by the counselor. She tells me I was selected to recieve the Wynne Kiwanis Leadership Award along with another girl in my school. So the next morning I had to go to Wynne and meet the Kiwanis members and eat breakfast with them at 6:30 in the morning.....yeah it wasnt all that fun, but it was pretyy cool that i got that award. now im in the running for their scholarship yay!~

Last night i had THREE(3) guys ask me for my number at work...one guy freakin called the store askin for me, and when i answered the phone he wanted to know my numbeR! agh!~...another was this black guy(no offense to ANY black people) and he was prolly about 5 or 6 maybe 10 years older than me, and he kept hittin on me, and i was like "dude, seriously, ur prolly 10 yrs older than me, you dont want my number" and he was like "how old r u?" and when i told him he and his friend were like "damn...my bad, sorry"!! haha it was so weird. i was freaked out. i told the manager to keep an eye on them and keep them away from me. i was freaked out. The other was this guy ive known for a while, not personally, but ive seen him around, and he asked me if i wanted to go to a party with him! holy crap....

heres a sidewayz pic of me and my grandpa at homecoming

ok so here is a pic(left to right) of Mandy, me, Clara, and Octavia. at hoopfest of course~

anywayz....

ok im out....

im really tired, and need sleeeeeeeeeep!~

Peace out-

Samantha

Friday the 13th was an awful day.

A friend of mine that I have had since the 3rd grade died at school with a massive heart attack. She was only 17 years old. It happened early at school so the rest of the day was just terrible. I will miss her very much. Please everyone, please be praying for Shawnas family becasue they need everyones prayers.

Well saturday was the first sat in a long time i didnt have to work so Me and my mom went dress shopping for me.....Since i am going to be in the beauty pageant...AND....I GOT 12TH GRADE HOOPFEST HOMECOMING MAID!!! I am so excited for getting that. I never get anything like that so i was pretty psyched to get it. I got 2 dresses. 1 for my pageant and the other for homeocming and prom. they are both sooooooooo pretty. The first one is blue and its a mermaid dress. and i have the perfect body shape for one of them things too lol. The other is a dark reddish marron lookin dress and its also just perfect. i also got the shoes to match the dress. omg they are just so pretty.

Well i was supposed to go out sat night with someone but they got grounded. figures...oh well.

O i cant wait for the next basketball games. Friday we play at home againt marked tree...sat we play at Newport. Tuesday we play someone...idk who....and next friday is Hoopfest Homecoming w/e it is....and we play turrell. we have already beat them, so i know we can do it again.

Not much else has happened. I still cant believe that Shawnna died. Its not really hit me hit me yet. Im sure it will when i go to the funeral.

Welp, i just wanted to update a lil bit.

Peace out-

Samantha

P.S. Please everyone pray for shawnas family.

Ok so yeah. I only have a couple months left till graduation.....

Its finally startin to kick in.

After makin all my plans for graduation, for college, and life, its really began to kick that i only have a few months left at High School.

Graduation is May 19th........

I will be going to EACC on a free scholarship for two years to get my basics out of the way. The good thing about that is, is that I am taking college algebra during school, and have started taking College Psychology and college Governement in night classes at the high school. Thankfully this will be getting some of my basics out of the way.

Once basics are done at EACC i will hopefully be going to UCA(University of Central Arkansas), and if i graduate EACC and maintain a 3.0 grade point i will go to UCA on a free transfer scholarship. the reaosn i am goin to UCA is so I can earn my bachelors degree. Once I earn my Bachelors Degree, then i can finally begin training on what i really want to do.

Once I am done with UCA i will be hopefully going to UAMS(University of Arkansas Of Medical Sciences) and get in the dental hygiene program. So thats what all im going for. I want to be a dental hygienist. that is my goal, and I am sticking to it. I will be making a lot of money doing this so I am hopefully going to stick this all through. 

OMG...ok so I like someone right now. I will NOT go into ANY details whatsoever in this matter due to some circumstances and the fact i dont know who reads this. I had someone read this the other day and bout had a cow over something that i wrote so i wont say too much on this matter till I know more of the facts for sure. but once i know things are straightened out and whatever, then i shall tell lol.

Ok so whats goin on in my life......

I still have my job...

I play basketball....

Im taking College Algebra, A.P. Literature, U.S. Government, FACS.....

i am now taking college courses at night....Psychology and Governement.....

I am beggining to have strong feelings for someone real special***

the CCHS pageant is coming up Feb. 4th and i have to get my dress for that....

The Prom is coming up real fast too......

AGH....and i dotn have hardly any money i want to spend!!!

lmao

oh well, thats life i guess.....

ok im out. i need to sleep tonight lol....

Peace out....

Samantha

oh yeah....

THE CROSS COUNTY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS OF 2006

Class Song- Wake Up-Lost Profits, Lean on Me-?, and I Believe-Fantasia

Class Flower-White Zinnia(in memory of a lost friend...Jesse Belcher)

Class Quote- If God will bring you to it, He will bring you through it.

Class Colors-Blue and White

....not sure bout the rest just now....

There was so much that happened during this year. I would have to say more bad than good, but i overcame all the bad and have came out on top. Well i guess since i did it a year ago today, i guess ill do another recap of my year in 2005.....

          well From January till April I was with Donald.I was So happy with him.  I havent told many people this, in fact, i think ive only told 1 or 2, but Donald is the only ex that i think i have trully deep down really missed. The other ones i got over pretty quick, but donald was just....dang...so hard to get over. I hid my feelings from everyone on him. Even all the guys I talked to or whatever, even robby, i never really told them or anyone else how i really felt about donald. Deep down, somewhere in my heart, ive always thought i would get back with Donald. Who knows? it may happen....*hopes*

          Well, This year I had my first prom, and i went with none other than Donald of course. Wow, i had so much fun. Heres a pic of us from prom. that was a great night. i do believe that had to be the highlight of my year. It was great cus we went to afterprom and everything and went lasertaging and bowling and then went to i hop. it was so awesome. wow.

            So a few weeks after prom, the worst part of my year happened. Me and Donald broke up. It was awful. I was so miserable.  I avoided him till the end of the year. i just couldnt face him.

             Summer came. Thank God. That saturday me and ferret went and applied at Food Giant. Monday came, and i got a call from the manager for an interview on wednesday and i got hired wednesday night, and started work on thursday. I spent all summer in HArrisburg practicly spending all my time with Robby. That was an interesting part of my summer. 2 wees after i got the job me and robby started dating for a lil while then finally started going out. He made me feel a lot better after the whole donald break up. Robby was real good to me. The break up was a joke, but the whole time we were together i was incrediblay happy. i felt like i was really worth something with him. But as time grew on, we grew farther apart. Idk, it was a complicated time. We broke up a day after our 3 month anniversary. I was of course miserable, but i got over it pretty quick. I woulda got over it quicker if the relationship wouldnt have moved so fast. We said a lot of things to each other that shouldnt have been said until a good few months or even years down th road like marriage and stuff. Yeah we just went too fast. Now we are good friends and if he ever needed anything id be there for him. I would hope he would do the same in return. He's got a great girlfriend now who i really think is cool. She is so sweet and i have a blast working with her.

          I went to Louisville for FCCLA this year. I got on the basketball team(o yeah numba 23!!), I got my wisdom teeth cut out, my mom graduated college finally!, i got some great new friends from harrisburg, i ve gotten real close with a few people from over there, i got my senior pictures done, and so much more. I also turned 17.

          I not only have grown physically, but spiritually and mentally too. I have been more accepting to other people faults and my own. My preacher said sumthin earlier in church and its made me really think about what im going to do this year. He said that I have to forget about yesterday and live for today and strive for tomorrows success. I dont want to remember all the bad stuff from the previous year. I made a lot of mistakes. And i think i have finally moved on from a lot of things. I am friends with all of my "used to be" enemies and have grown to love and care for everyone. even though that backfires on me alot. but i would rather love everyone and have it backfire on me, then not love someone and be labled a stuck up.

This year is my year, and i can feel it. Im gonna have a great time spending the last year with all my friends. Im graduating high school this year, which means ill be leaving a lot of friends i love with all my heart. Ive always heard once u graduate u lose touch with almost all ur friends. I hope its not too true.

2006 is my year.....I really can feel it. I know i will have a great time this year. I have so many friends who will be right there by me the whole way. A few of them i hope, will eventually grow to be more accepting of my faults and mistakes.

Ok well im out. there was my post for the look back on my time in 2005. 2005 was an ok year. more downs than ups, but the good thing about those downs, is that i always came up from em.

goodnight,

Peace Up-and cheers lookin back on 2005, and cheers for an awesome upcoming year in 2006!!!!

Samantha